The Strongest Girls are also girls who feel broken inside

She is strong because she is still here. And she is still surviving after all the cruelty this world has shown her!

Have you ever met that girl- the one who always has the brightest smile on her face, the one whose spirit can never be broken no matter what obstacles life throws in her way, the one who always seems to have every single thing in control? Yes, I’m talking about the girl who seems to be capable of handling absolutely anything in life- whether it’s heart break inflicted on her by the guy she loved deeply, or the end of a friendship with someone she had given her all to, or even a fight between her parents that leaves her family even more dysfunctional than before.

You can try to hurt her. You can try to break her spirit. You can try to mess with her emotions. And you can try to make each passing day harder for her. But no matter what, she will still fake a smile. She will hold her head high. And she will keep moving forward with her life. She will act like nothing has happened. She will act like everything around her is perfectly okay. And she will act like her heart is made of stone.

To the world around her, she appears to be the strongest girl. But that’s not how she feels inside. There are days when she starts to feel guilty about living this lie. She starts to wonder if the world has started to give her more credit than she actually deserves. She starts to feel anxious at the thought of people discovering the reality of her life.

The people around her think she’s strong. They think she’s unbreakable. They think she’s invincible. But that’s only because they have witnessed just one side of her. They have seen her during the day, when she manages to put up an act, when she gathers enough energy to keep pretending. But they haven’t seen her at night, when she’s alone in her bed, holding on to her pillow, tired and lonely after all the problems she has faced.

She won’t ever reveal her vulnerable side to you or to anyone else in the world.

When she feels the urge to start crying, she will push away all her tears until everyone is gone, until she finds a chance to run to the bathroom and let the water works out. When she starts to feel upset, she will come up with an excuse to cancel all her plans so that no one can catch her having a bad day. And when she starts to completely break down, she won’t text any of her friends or post about it on her social media accounts. She will choose to keep her emotions to herself, to deal with her problems on her own, to keep suffering in silence!

And it’s not because her friends are bad people or that they’re not willing to listen. It’s just that she doesn’t see any point in sharing all her sadness with them. After all, she is considered the funny one in their group. The one who always has the brightest smile on her face. The one who has solutions to every problem they face. Her friends are the ones who come to her with all their concerns. They always expect her to know what’s right. They expect her to always be in control of every situation.

So when you start to complain about your almost-perfect lives, she will keep nodding. She will keep listening. And she will keep offering words of consolation. But inside, she wants to scream. She wants to let you know that these aren’t even actual problems. She wants to let you know about all the things she has been dealing with- the ones that are a thousand times worse.

But she won’t allow herself to lose control and finally explode. She will listen. She will try to understand. And she will try to be a good friend to you.

The truth is it’s not even that difficult anymore to place all her problems aside when she’s in public, when she’s surrounded with people, and when there are a hundred other things going on. She has actually gotten used to it.

But the moment she gets in her car, the moment she finds a place of solitude, and the moment she gets out of the eyes of the world, she starts to feel all her problems come crashing back on her mind.

She never looks forward to long drives alone in her car. She doesn’t want to stay up late at night. She doesn’t want to allow her midnight thoughts to overpower her. And she doesn’t want to get stuck in her dangerous and evil mind- the place that can convince her that she is far behind in life. That she is completely unsuccessful. That she is unattractive. That she is dumb. That she is going to die alone, and without fulfilling any of her goals and dreams.

She might look strong. She might even be strong. But her fears never seem to leave her mind. They follow her everywhere she goes. And they end up making her feel useless, small, and worthless.

She can’t seem to make peace with the fact that the entire world views her as a beautiful, funny, independent girl while she views herself as completely the opposite- as someone fake.

But there’s one thing she never realized- she is strong because despite all her fears, despite all her insecurities, and despite all her troubles, she still chooses to keep moving forward. She still chooses to have hope. She still chooses to smile through all the pain.

She is strong because she is still here. And she is still surviving after all the cruelty this world has shown her!